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Well, the first time I had intercourse was when I was raped.  But the first time I did it on purpose, it was unpleasant.  I was 15 and didn't know what I was doing, he was 17 and he sure did.  We were on a hard, wood floor at his mom's house and my head kept bumping the leg of the coffee table.  I wasn't wet enough and I tore a lot.  The intercourse itself felt very similar to being raped, but I wasn't terrified so the overall experience was nowhere near as bad.  It took me almost a decade to unlearn the bad parts of having sex and learn ways to enjoy my body.